Brushed my teeth and combed my hair
Had to drive me everywhere
You were always there when I looked back

You had to do it all alone
Make a living, make a home
Must have been as hard as it could be

And when I couldn’t sleep at night
Scared things wouldn’t turn out right
You would hold my hand and sing to me

Caterpillar in the tree
How you wonder who you’ll be
Can’t go far but you can always dream

Wish you may and wish you might
Don’t you worry, hold on tight
I promise you there will come a day
Butterfly fly away

Butterfly fly away, butterfly fly away
Flap your wings now you can’t stay
Take those dreams and make them all come true

Butterfly fly away, butterfly fly away
We’ve been waiting for this day
All along and knowing just what to do
Butterfly, butterfly, butterfly, butterfly fly away

Butterfly fly away
Butterfly fly away

Ever since the news reached me
The last memory I had with her has been playing in my head over and over again
It’s quite embarrassing though. Haha
Well, I used to be so freaking dumb in Bahasa Melayu
So dumb that she had to put me in her Pemulihan Bahasa Melayu class
One time, I skipped her class and went to do stupid things stupid teenagers like me did back then
And just before I went back home, I sneaked back to school to take my stuff
I suddenly met her at the stairs near the café (Matrians would know where)
And she chased me right into class with her umbrella! I never had a chance against her
It was so scary I tell you, she was so faaast for a 60-70 year old women
Man, the energy that woman had. Haha
I still skipped other classes after that, but never her class
I am still dumb in Bahasa Melayu though. Haha
But the way she believed in me, the way she never looked at me the way some other teachers did – that your-unfixable look, had always been one of the essence that drives me today

I’m sorry Ummi Halimaton, for being one of your most difficult students
And thank you for all the love, understanding and faith you had for, well, all your students

Before you, Bella, my life was like a moonless night
Very dark, but there were stars – points of light and reason
… And then you shot across my sky like a meteor
Suddenly everything was on fire; there was brilliancy, there was beauty
When you were gone, when the meteor had fallen over the horizon, everything went black
Nothing had changed, but my eyes were blinded by the light
I couldn’t see the stars anymore
And there was no more reason for anything 

(I know I’m late) The book was pretty awesome (Very awesome)
She captured every emotion, both joy, bitter agony and romance perfectly
Though I loved Jake best, in character I mean
But in the movies, Edward Cullen is so heart-melting
(Yes, I have seen the move over, over and over again)
I would definitely buy Eclipse and Breaking Dawn next

A blinding flash of white light
Lit up the sky over Gaza tonight
People running for cover
Not knowing whether they’re dead or alive

They came with their tanks and their planes
With ravaging fiery flames
And nothing remains
Just a voice rising up in the smoky haze

We will not go down
In the night, without a fight
You can burn up our mosques and our homes and our schools
But our spirit will never die
We will not go down
In Gaza tonight

Women and children alike
Murdered and massacred night after night
While the so-called leaders of countries afar
Debated on who’s wrong or right

But their powerless words were in vain
And the bombs fell down like acid rain
But through the tears and the blood and the pain
You can still hear that voice through the smoky haze

We will not go down
In the night, without a fight
You can burn up our mosques and our homes and our schools
But our spirit will never die
We will not go down
In Gaza tonight

And here we are sitting idle
Sipping our Starbucks coffee, and stuffing our face with McDonalds

It’s like catching lightening
The chances of of finding, someone like you
It’s one in a million
The chances of feeling the way we do
And with every step together
We just keep on getting better

I’ve been busting my ass, my stress levels are so high I feel like suffocating
It’s a different kind of stress, not like chasing deadlines and meeting task requirements
My students, they have to understand the subject, have to be inspired
And I feel like I just haven’t done enough, I feel like I’m running out of motivation
It’s so hard Sayang, I really wish you were here

This is a post I rethought like twice, thrice.. thousand-times before posting
Regardless of this corny post,
I am still the ice queen and I will still destroy and eat your insides if I wanna.
Muahahaha~

I am one of those people, I still am and I always will be

And you my friends, will be the people I trust to understand ‘cause you know me that well

1st Tag:

The challenge is:

Go to your photos folder in your computer.
Go to the 6th folder of photos.
Go to the 6th picture in that folder.
Put the picture on your blog and description of it.
Invite six friends to join the challenge.
Link them in your blog and let them know they have been challenged.

Okay. This is weird. Haha
This is a picture of me during my college years
A determined, ambitious, ruthless, self-righteous little freak of nature
I still am. More suppressed and conceived. But still am. Haha
The picture was taken during Entrepreneur week
Which I was one of the committee members
But kije makan je. Haha
Mannn, the good ol’ days

2nd Tag:

1. Put your music on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS!
4. Tag 10 friends who might enjoy doing the memo as well as the person you got the memo from.

IF SOMEONE SAYS “IS THIS OKAY” YOU SAY?
Sum 41 – Count Your Last Blessing

WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
Jewel – Drive To You

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Saving Jane – Supergirl

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
Athlete – Half Light

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE’S PURPOSE?
KT Tunstall – Hold On

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Paramore – Decode

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Carrie Underwood – Wheel of The World

WHAT IS 2+2?
Leona Lewis – A Moment Like This

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
Avenged Sevenfold – Betrayed

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Seether – Rise Above This

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Faber Drive – Tongue Tied

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Kaiser Chiefs – Ruby

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Augustana – Sweet and Low

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
The Dandy Warhols – We Used To Be Friends

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Imogen Heap – Speeding Cars

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
Simple Plan – When I’m Gone

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
Sum 41 – Confusion and Frustration In Modern Times

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Maroon 5 – Little of Your Time

WHAT’S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
Three Days Grace – I Hate Everything About You

WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?
Adele – Chasing Pavements

WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?
The Click 5 – Jenny

WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?
Dashboard Confessional – Stolen

HOW WILL YOU DIE?
Avenged Sevenfold – Seize the Day

WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED?
Theory of a Deadman – Bad Girlfriend

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
Fergie – Big Girls Don’t Cry

DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
Nickelback – Gotta Be Somebody

WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?
Natasha Bedingfield – Soulmate

IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?
Rihanna – Cry

WHAT WOULD YOU SAY, WHEN YOU MEET YOUR BOSS?
Switchfoot – Stars

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
Kanye West – Heartless

So, I arrived in Kuantan with my sister, Bihah on the 22nd January
With a list of food Ummi had to cook for us. Haha
Hubby arrived Kuantan with Nawwar and my sister Sa’ the very next day
And Ummi cooked us all mee udang (which we gobbled like some friggin’ refugees)

The day of the ceremony was quite a blur as things happened so fast
I was sweating like a pig in the convocation gown-thing, and my mortar kept falling off
I was freaking out with what ifs – what if I trip on the stage, what if I end up giggling in fron of the chansellor, etc
And I actually said “Junjung kasih tuanku” to the Chansellor when he handed my degree. Haha
After all the drama, I took some pictures with my so very missed-friends
And headed out of the hall to a very hungry Hubby holding a very beautiful bouquet of flowers
By like noon I already headed home

That night, Hubby took us all to ECM where my sister (Yes, I have many sisters) Angah treated everyone for doughnuts
Early morning the next day, Hubby and I went to Kuantan to take some studio pictures together

For dinner, Ummi made us BBQ, fruit salad, udang goreng tepong and nasi goreng
Wow. It was super awesome, and I cant believe my little brother can start his own barbeque fire
Isk isk. I was so overwhelmed to eat his barbequed chicken.
My scrawny little brothers, whom I had to tell bedtime stories to, I was always scolded by Ummi for spoiling them, etc could now cook me dinner
Haha. Nuff with the emotional crap
The fun didn’t last that long ‘cause then it started to rain
Haha. Kesian my brothers. They had to continue barbequeing under the porch.
Which totally killed the BBQ spirit. Haha
Well, enjoy the pictures ^^

But when it’s in the grasp of your hands
All the yearning and longing dies out
And as days, months, years pass
Beneath all the grime and filth
It might not shine as bright, it might not gleam in pride
But it’s still the same,
the same dream, the same inspiration
The same happiness you spent so much sweat, blood and tears for

Love isn’t for a day, a month, a year
It’s a fire, a tree,
a burning and growing heart
Someone to come home to
Whose love is worth fighting for
Something to die and live for

Happy 2009 everyone!